11:40 a.m. Gym. As I take advantage of the elliptical, I ponder about all the substances I put in my physique; I image my GI tract as a Wall Street buying and selling ground with numerous liquids and solids yelling into telephones, making calls for of the remainder of my sorry organs.
12:45 p.m. Race again to my house to bathe and pack for the Solid Sound Festival in North Adams, Mass., tomorrow. I achieve my objective of getting to Penn Station simply earlier than they announce our gate.
2:20 p.m. As a self-employed “creative,” I really feel like I’m supposed to be good at working in transit. “Stand-up?” “I’ll write on the bus.” “The commissioned essay?” “I’ll whip something up on the train.” “My taxes?” “I’ll do them on the redeye.” Guess what? It by no means occurs. On this practice I make a set checklist for tomorrow, learn components of a e book and play a number of video games of Candy Crush. Don’t fear, I’ve berated myself totally with out your judgment, thanks.
9:30 a.m. Music festivals make me nervous. I determine individuals are there to see music, not comedy, and that kicks off the roll name of unfavorable ideas: What in the event that they hate me? What if I’ve to stroll round a bunch of individuals I simply bombed in entrance of? Why does it matter? Why do I matter? Why does my ego get in the method of simply present? And so on. Nothing perseveres like nervousness.
10:35 a.m. Sound verify. Thankfully, the comedy venue is indoors and other than the music stage; it’s bought an artwork museum vibe. I meet John Hodgman, who organizes the comedy present portion of the pageant, in addition to the different producers. It’s low-key in the inexperienced room, designed to make you’re feeling comfy. But my nerves are like, “At ease? [Expletive] you! This is our time to shine.”
12 p.m. To attempt to calm my nerves I hear to an outdated set — it reminds my mind that I’ve executed this earlier than.
2 p.m. John Hodgman hosts the afternoon phase with Jean Grae, a comic book and hip-hop artist from Brooklyn. They do a dwell model of his podcast, Judge John Hodgman, the place he arbitrates points individuals are having (e.g. one man is anxious about his girlfriend placing her consuming glass on high of the bathroom). The crowd is heat and engaged, and Rhea Butcher, the L.A. comedian who performs earlier than me, has a killer set. I understand possibly my nervousness has no place right here. Still, I take some meds — propranolol — to preserve me from getting too shaky.